Thursday 25 July 2019

Chasing Poetry



After ma's passing away, I've started dividing my memory into two halves: The Ma Days and Without Ma Days. Since Without Ma Days is only about a month and I am still brooding on what is happening, allow me to hatch incidents(for the time being one) from Ma Days.

This episode I name:  Chasing Poetry.

As those who know me, know Ma, should also know the kind of bond we shared. She was actually a person who could understand me better than I can ever comprehend myself. May be all mothers have this quality. But all mothers are not their daughters' partners in adventures and misadventures.

This incident belongs to one of those sultry early summer evenings when you almost get consumed in ennui. The only antidote to such a depressive trap, ma and I believed, was going  to a cinema.

So we checked show timings at theaters near our house, booked a cab, slipped into something handy and smeared double coat of lipstick for lipstick always elevates a woman's mood, if not her morale.

Incidentally, we chose to watch Secret Superstar: an incredible film which other than anything portrays the bond of unflinching love between mother and daughter. Certain dialogues of young Zaira, in fact reiterated a particular proposal that I had always kept open for ma.  After I becoming self reliant, I used to tell her: do hell with your daily drudgery and fare away to a far away place with me. But she never complied. You know mothers and their responsibilities!

The movie ended around 9:45. Even before leaving the multiplex I booked a cab without wasting time. Most of the shops had closed. So we couldn't do any  window shopping. It was ma's idea to wait for our cab outside the mall. As always, compulsively I chose to obey. The crowd started thinning but our cab didn't turn up. We waited. It was past 10 o'clock. Seemingly our cab driver was finishing a trip. And he was playing this in rewind and play mode for the past twenty minutes.
I had already called him four to five times but he was nowhere to be seen. I started mulling other options. And this moment of absent mindedness  was fiendishly utilized by a shaggy looking man wearing the shirt of a taxi driver.

In a fraction of a second he snatched my smartphone from my palm smeared in grease of cheese popcorn. Albeit, he could seize my phone from my right hand but my left hand grasped  his collar almost reflexively. Naturally he tried to let himself loose, knocked me off and hopped on the driving seat of a taxi which he had parked on the other side of the lane. Fully charged  by Zaira's daredevil attitude I could feel the power of Wonder Woman in my gut… I chased the driver clutching his collar and tried to drag him out of the taxi. But before I could get an upper hand over him he turned the engine and the taxi started wheeling away. Like a lunatic obsessive creature I hung on, until the taxi speed and I was nudged aside  by a stranger. " Have you gone mad! You think yourself to be some action woman? Why did you do that?", the stranger and many others railed at me.

Why did I do that? Well, I have an explanation. To start with, it was an average Lenovo smart phone where a couple of function keys had gone dysfunctional. Still, I had a reason.  All those stuff in document section… could be worthless to all and sundry but they were priceless to me. And that was reason enough to chase my phone… the phone that was stuffed with poetry.

Coming back to the scene: luckily, few good Samaritans, rather young knights on shining bikes came to rescue this damsel in distress.      " Ma'am don't worry. It's a dead end. We'll catch hold of him." Saying that, they vroomed off. Humanity is not lost,you know! A couple with a child even cancelled  their cab. They didn't want to abandon these helpless mother-daughter duo at such a dire situation. The lady asked me to block my phone and inform the police, asap. Getting the idea, my mother who was utterly drained out after seeing her daughter's heroism, started calling the police…frantically, yet futilely.

Within ten minutes if not more, the three bullets zoomed back into the crime scene along with my doper phone-thief, squeezed between the biker driving the second bike along with his pillion. I saw my antique piece swaying in the hand of the third biker. My phone was returned to me, almost like a wooing gift to a coveted queen.Ma made the bikers feel worthy with kinds words. Rejuvenated, they realized  their duty was not yet over.

That is why, enthusiastically they took up the charge of the thief's retribution. As if, it was a chivalrous responsibility levied upon them. And the mob thought no differently.Remember, the humane couple I mentioned earlier? The husband, with all due respect asked me and ma to step aside. The wife and the child were instructed the same. He rolled up his sleeves, rubbed his fist and charged ahead. Now I doubt, if he at all stayed back to protect us!

To my utter embarrassment, the traffic had ceased to cross that area. My defenders had positioned themselves in circular formation keeping my golliwog of a thief  in the middle, predisposed to his own predicament. In no time battering started. The dance of democracy… unleashing the epiphany of human nature.

Alas! I really didn't want this. I mean it. Unfortunately, ma couldn't reach the police, despite trying repeatedly. Seeing the scene turning  into a horror show, even I started dialing their number. In the meantime, a person from the mob, in a fit of mad zeal picked up a bamboo pole to hit the poor fellow. Horrified, I  rushed to grab the pole before it could be launched on my brutalized little doper-thief. I wonder, which gland in human body secretes such venomous hormones of animosity.

Poor chap, now he was at my feet not pleading for mercy but pleading to be rescued. I felt pity as well as guilty about this ripple effect. Mob lynching can never bring justice. Above all, mob lynching can not be a punishment for a petty theft. Is it that we deride some crooked  pleasure by lynching someone who is in not in a position to retaliate? If society progresses in cyclic order, would I be wrong to say, we are, in that case heading toward days when might used to be right; the era where big fish ate the small fish. In fact, at times I feel we have become fishes gasping in turbid and contaminated water.

Finding it unbearable, I intervened. My assortment of words which the world calls poetry can never be more precious than a human life. Moreover, I had got my phone back and the thief got his lesson. So I pulled up a stern voice and cried out to stop the fiasco.

Thankfully, a taxi driver offered his services to drive ma and me home. Promptly I plucked that lump of a thief and shoved him into the cab, telling my well wishers I'd get him arrested. But, under ma's prudent counsel we dropped him somewhere in between and returned home pondering which part of the incident would haunt us the most.

It was almost 11'o o'clock when we reached home. Phone rang. It wasn't the Police calling me back. It was our cab driver. He had just reached his pick up destination.







Friday 12 July 2019

Insomniac's Delirium



This poem I wrote long time back. May be around 2006. At that time I barely knew what insomnia is. So it could be assumed that the poem was written from vicarious contemplation. In fact, this poem had found a tiny space in The Times of India. Although, I wonder how many have read  it. Anyway, now that I know what insomnia is, I ruminate over the muse who caused this poem.  


Insomniac’s Delirium
Hundred Phantoms haunt my mind;
Of past, present and unknown times.
Wanton desire’s panging existence;
Drenching me with sweating glands.

From the dead of night
Till the brink of dawn,
On my bed
I cringe and Beacon.
While my thirsty eyes
Chase fleeting sleep.

Sleep! Oh Sleep!
A will-o-the -wisp ?
If it comes natural to living beings;
Am I a ghost…..
In search of peace?


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